Remix Essay

Abstract: The assignment was to create an essay that told a story through mixed up lyrics, from different bands and types of music. This essay is composed of different lyric lines that ultimately end up describing the grief I felt when one of my Grandmothers passed away from terminal cancer after a long battle. The understanding and coping of it all.  There are several different bands lyrics used across all genres of music that I used. Bands like Tool to the Front Bottoms, I wanted to unite these lyrics to express my feeling.

Essay:

On the night you disappeared, I woke up in the morning oh, and I didn’t know where I’d been. I coughed it out. You’re invisible, you’re in everything. But I wondered where you were and called your name into the dark. When you get to the other side please send a sign. Avoid the darkness stay away and stay out of sight. You are higher in the sky and you learned the skill to stay alive, survival. Tell me what you see when you’re everywhere. And oh can’t you see? You won’t be sent back, and you will be waiting for me on the other side of the frozen pines. But just don’t give up yet.

Hang on to what you have and let it grow. Everlasting love is ever growing as I look up to the sky. I’ve been waiting the night until you decide to take me there. I am human, nothing more than human. I am delusional with love and I’ll always love you. Yet, everlasting love is ever dying. So full of sorrow and tomorrow seemed so far away. You’re put out of misery though and you won’t have to face it again. Now, expanded to the state of light, they don’t understand the way you feel. They are flesh, bones, they are skin and soul. You are higher in the sky and every step you take of the way gets you higher. The steps seem to bend and take the shape of them.

Tell me now, while you drift away from all the plates of this world. Let them all go in the sky while I cough it out. Yet it got better as I coughed it out because I breathed in and out. It’s in the past, I have to let it go. Won’t ever forget her but hey, I’m trying so hard not to cry. Well now you know I’m fed up but I’ll keep my head up. I just didn’t give up hope. What I’m trying to say is, you never know what you’ve been through until you pause and cough it out. People gonna believe what they wanna but, I wonder how they know, because they are human. I’ve only been here one time and I own a heart.

In the cold light I live to love and adore you. It’s all that I am it’s all that I have. There is a time to love, a time to leave. But I lifted up eyes to a new high and indeed there would be time. And suddenly, I see that love costs all we are and all we will ever be. Fetch me the Spirit, the Son, and the Father, tell them their pillar of faith has ascended. Who could deny you were the one who illuminated? You are the light and the way that they will only read about.

I am a woman and I will tell you that to your face. Set as I was in the ways of my arrogance, the Holy Mother, granted me clarity. Hope as far as one can see. Clam in this humility, I witnessed the majesty. Blessed that be in this reawakening, oh it makes me wonder. Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run there’s still time to change the road you’re on. Yet, to be safe we lose our chance of ever knowing what’s around the river bend. I feel it there beyond those trees. Love arrives, I just don’t care. However, there will be a new day, and the sun is on my side. I never lived a lie, never took a life but surely filled one. With a word I can get what I came for, but I just don’t care because you know sometimes words have two meanings. Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven, so I’ll enjoy my time. What’s the meaning of life that we lead when we’re caught up in the race? We listen to the tales and romanticize how we follow the path.

When all I had to keep was strong I moved along, I moved along like I knew I should. Even when my hope was gone, I moved along just to make it through. Life ain’t always what you think it oughta be no. What I’ve never did is done, at least I could say that I’ve tried. It’s no secret that all of us are running out of time. In a little while I started to smile and here I thought I forgot that I knew how. You’ll be running in my veins though, now that you’re everywhere. She told me to stand up like a solider baby. Yeah she knew I was built like that. I was hoping that the bridge wouldn’t cave in, so that night we let it all go free. They shouldn’t have seen me weakened like that. Then I told the stories of my elders in the never ending chain.

Unbreakable will and inquiring mind have always been the seekers guide. I can’t deny what I’ve seen so towards the great unknown I must keep going on. I know that we will unite again somewhere in time and light the brightest star in the endless sky. But if I die young, bury me in satin and lay me down in a bed of roses. At night you will name every endless star. I know the way; I know who I am, where I am, who I am. Now the wait for the time, when all is revealed is calling me. When my time comes, I won’t lose my heart. I’ll have faith and patience and trust in the flame before passing it unto someone new. They can keep their twisted beliefs because it’s easier to be afraid, to be deceived, and to be a sheep. Don’t you think it’s perfect and the feelings worth it to go over everything? Speak to me and tell me everything!

Chasing my crazy dreams I washed away the remains of lies, but yet the refused to see it. Every man’s horizon can change. For example, what I love most about rivers is you can’t step in the same river twice; the waters always changing always flowing. My spirit is crying for leaving yet should I choose the smoothest course steady as the beating drum? The travelers heart is meant to be free with no obligations and soul redeemed. I set a course to find the answer divine. I was unaccustomed to courage, exiled from delight and lived in a coiled shell of loneliness. Until her love left her high holy temple, and came into my sight to liberate me into life. Lighted it up, yeah lighted it up. I set it ablaze like a candle I lit it hotter. I never, I never want another so hello from the other side. I have been calling you a thousand times to tell you that it’s my time now! I righted back what was wrong, I moved along while feigning all the trials and tribulations.

Heaven knows life can turn on a dime, but keep I strutting down this yellow brick road called life. My head was humming and it wouldn’t go in case you didn’t know, but it got better. It gets better. And if you listen very hard the tune will come to you at last. Years will go by, and I will think I could forget that I lived in a lie, that’s all I regret.